hey guess what?

Steven Phanvongsa will be in a DESIGN COURSE AT BOX HILL TAFE NEXT YEAR HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA oh man I didn't think my life would be going in this direction though I'm pretty much in considering I'm going for my interview next Wednesday just to show them my folio haha

my life will be filled with folio work and shitty late nights working on last minute works HAHAHA oh how I miss those days haha

one more thing before i stop

buy John Mayer's new album! it's such a good set of songs haha can't believe it took him 3 years to release this, his music is all good haha

I sometimes think that I'm too nice of a person then it leads to me being taken advantage of, Am i stupid for being too nice? to be honest...yeah I feel insanely stupid sometimes for not opening my mouth at anytime to voice my thoughts or answer? Is this good? or am I just wrong for always being the 'nice guy'?

blah I think I've done a entry about me being too nice around people lol but meh today was good..then...I guess let's say it went down hill just because of one person...going to say it's a guy lmao anyway

I was at Box Hill from...2pm? till 7 just playing Gundam Versus Gundam and kicking so much ass haha

I have a photoshoot on Saturday at 2pm...but I kinda don't want to go...so tired these days and well...I hope it rains LOL

oh yeah one more thing before I stop this entry, my friend kris bit my arm and kris is a girl lol wait...are there girls who have been named Chris before? haha

Goooooooood night all~

P.S
Anyone else going to see Zombieland this Thursday?

Does anyone have a friend that kind of wrecks your fun or jokes when you speak to them?

I was talking to someone on msn and well I was just joking around that I like to think of myself as batman and then suddenly I get a sudden 'no you're not batman' and I replied and the convo died OTL....

hey I like to think of myself as batman~ I can dream can't I? I mean It's just a simple dream/fantasy that I have and I'm sure that others have other dreams or fantasies of other things but for someone just to just simply screw it up and not see the funny or humorous side to it...kind of wrecks the fun right?

anyway I love this part of Rage against the machine's song 'killing in the name'

'Fuck you, I won't do what you tell me.
Fuck you, I won't do what you tell me.
Fuck you, I won't do what you tell me.
Fuck you, I won't do what you tell me.
Fuck you, I won't do what you tell me.
Fuck you, I won't do what you tell me.
Fuck you, I won't do what you tell me.
Fuck you, I won't do what you tell me.
FUCK YOU, I WON'T DO WHAT YOU TELL ME!!
FUCK YOU, I WON'T DO WHAT YOU TELL ME!!
FUCK YOU, I WON'T DO WHAT YOU TELL ME!!
FUCK YOU, I WON'T DO WHAT YOU TELL ME!!
FUCK YOU, I WON'T DO WHAT YOU TELL ME!!!
FUCK YOU, I WON'T DO WHAT YOU TELL ME!!!
FUCK YOU, I WON'T DO WHAT YOU TELL ME!!!
FUCK YOU, I WON'T DO WHAT YOU TELL ME!!!

MOTHERFUCKER!!!! Ugh!!'

LOL I'm trying to see the point in where how they became popular but god damn it their songs are addicting to listen to haha

Oh yeah I've been playing pokemon......A LOT because I'm trying to catch up in some serious business~ I've been playing so much that I don't even realise the time passing and then boom it's batteries are dying HAHAHA

It's a funny thing isn't it?

It can go well in some cases, other days it just fucks up in your face right?

As soon as it appears you know I'll talk about it, its what I do~ Isn't that what a blog is supposed to be?

I'm watching this show called Huff and it's about this Psychiatrist who fails to save a patient and well....let's say his head goes boom with lots of blood and he becomes horrified of the experience and has a massive breakdown, he finds this homeless guy on the street whenever he goes outside his office and the homeless man asks for many favors but even though Huff doesn't want to full-fill the favors he does it anyway due to his conscience and well...personally I guess the homeless man is trying to create ease in Huff and to let him forgive himself for the suicide of his patient.

You know what I did last night? I went to a freaking party lol
Ricardo drove me to chadstone, had some fun there and then headed to Van's party.......TOOK US AN HOUR TO GET THERE BECAUSE WE DIDN'T REALISE THE OTHER SIDE OF THE STREET FUUUUUUCK! we drove past the house a few freaking times cause there was no way of spotting it cause of the freaking dark -_-

by the time I got there....the majority of guests were drunk and retarded so I hurried to find everyone and well they were in the same area as last year LOL had a few cigarette's with Ting~~ and the rest of the night was pretty much laughing and talking about weird and fantastic crap haha

I left like...in two hours? I really couldn't stand it anymore..just didn't feel comfortable AT ALL being around all these people...had the temptation to bite my lip harder until it bled -_-

so Ting gave me a lift home, your tape player sucks hardcore Ting!!! hahaha

spent the rest of the night with tv and music and well I started talking to a particular friend and well I think I just fucked up another friendship -_- and she is probably the nicest...caring...awesome girl I have met in awhile and she accepts me for who I am...sigh I wonder if I can still be with her........guh

hey what time is everyone going to be at van's party on Friday?

I'll be there at around 8............

Don't wanna get there and find out you're all coming at like 9 or later XD



My family desu~ HAHAHA

I'm reading LJ entries, eating caramel popcorn and listening to music that makes me usually cringe.

anyway was reading chancake entry...shhhh LJ won't let me add the 'S' so it'll sound less fobby ANYWAY I'm bored so read my meme homeslices~

You know how sometimes people on your friends list post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.

Please copy the topics below, erase my answers and put yours in their place, and then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration. One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out. (:

well I hope you all enjoyed reading that~ now you can look at ma pretty face LOL

you make me laugh~ to be honest SHE WAS PRETTY COOL

Yes I'm seeing a Psychologist

there were a few things that made me laugh

sleeping late is actually bad for my anxiety and down's my confidence level quite a lot

I deal with stressful and awkward situations by constantly smiling and my fidgeting is caused to the stressed thoughts I have in my head of what others think of me because of the thing's I'll say [yes I think A LOT before I say anything to you guys that's why I struggle to have conversations with you all] haha

and yes this is why I smoke because I'm a weak person who can't deal with my anxiety.

Though I was talking to her about how I can freely talk to anyone if I'm in a comfortable situation or environment, and she said that I have that sort of...scapegoat that let's my confidence boost up and if it fails I have a good friend to talk to

dah what a day~ I'm tired, I'm gonna sleep for awhile.

P.S
past few days have been great, COLD WEATHER WOOOOOSH

I just had one of those moments on msn when I really did laugh for awhile and have a aftermath smile from what my friend mel said

- `` .m e l says:
*haha
*i broke my wii
*tried to turn it on yest
*wont work
*:(
kun~kun~ [?] [BLURG!] [who can i trust these days~] says:
*O_O.............................how does someone....break a wii...
*you're more careless than me LOL
- `` .m e l says:
*i dont know!!
*but wiimote wont turn on
*:(
kun~kun~ [?] [BLURG!] [who can i trust these days~] says:
*nawww your wiimote? are you sure you just havent got flat batteries?
- `` .m e l says:
*i dont know!
*but i changed batts
*n still wont work
*lol
kun~kun~ [?] [BLURG!] [who can i trust these days~] says:
*sigh isn't even synced to your wii console?
- `` .m e l says:
*i dont knowwwwwww
*:(
*cant play
*house of the dead
*n shoot zombies
*pew pew

hmm....breaking a wii...hmm..HOW? LOL oh mel if you're reading this....you'll always be my geeky princess HAHAHA

and someone tell me why the megaman series is so goddamn addicting?

I never really talked to..my parents about what kind of beliefs Lao and Thai people believed in until when I woke up to my brother screaming from the kitchen 'MAC DONALD'S!' so I was eating at the table when my mum came in talking about how my grandfather is supposedly coming to stay at our house in December or January and this is where it gets screwy


I noticed this status on my fb and it amused me..A LOT XD

"girls are like milkshakes....they might look all good with whipped cream and stuff....but then they might taste horrible! A girl might look cute, but then she talks....and has a bad personality and that makes her real ugly!"

oh man it made me laugh A LOT HAHAHA

well I've just seen all three seasons of It's Always sunny in Philadelphia, and it's about 4 friends who own a unsuccessful bar and do nothing but drink and go through life LOL It's really awesome, i mean some of the things are like seinfeld how you can relate to certain scenes or moments of the show haha

and I've been playing the DS a LOT more than I usually would.............fuck am going back to my old roots and becoming a gamer again? O_O first it was comic books NOW IT'S GAME, I don't have enough money for these things haha

It's been about......4 days? since I've left out a roll of film in the sorching sun and as stupid as I am, I put it back in a container in my bag and now I don't know which is the sun exposed roll...............................................NICE WORK STEVEN , so i've just put all these rolls of film out in the sun whenever I wake up haha It's bound to be one of them~

oh yeah before I forget, anyone who glimpses at this, my parents are out on the 21st which is a Saturday, and my brother and I are home alone, either I have another boring night ooor hold that freaking movie night I keep trying to do haha

last thing, 3rd Lomography camera is on it's way to me...well It's being shipped on Monday and should be here by either Thursday or Friday since I paid for EMS shipping.....$53.....WHOAH SHIT XD but it's worth it honestly, I'll be building this camera from the pieces given to me and with Japanese Instructions..........it's going to be like building those gundam model's again LOL looking at numbers of the parts and looking at the building instructions, AH HELP ME XD

well going to sleep now, well..I'll play Scribblenauts awhile longer then sleep haha

Night ;)

There are some real asshole admin's in certain groups on Flickr, fuck seriously why be so tight on rules when you know the site is just a whole big giant community where people just want to show their photos to everyone.

PFFT the worlds fucktarded haha

I really do think I've found my calling in this world, seeing and creating wonderful photos through my plastic lenses LOL 

and I'm watching the 2nd Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles movie and I'm just paying so much attention to the scene then suddenly this foot ninja comes and he has a butt-chin and I just crack up laughing like the first time I found 30 Rock haha

and Vanilla Ice's moment singing the 'Go ninja, Go ninja GO!' song during the clubbing fight scene HAHAHAHA oh man just epic haha

anyway I uploaded 30 new photos to my flickr, ugh so much hard work haha look at this photo



Trippy and awesome huh? haha I love my blackbird camera~

everyone who has a DS , download or buy Phantasy star zero/0 once it's released, I wanna form a party with you all and play on DS with others other than myself haha

we can create matching characters and pwn some people in the online mode..just need someone with a wifi access at their house and lots of power points so we can play for ages hahaha

and my photo on flickr titled  'I need......' has....DRUM ROLL PLEASE~ *extremely fast drum beat* 111 views! FUCK YEAH~ the year is nearly over and I finally find something that people appreciate, ahhhhh i feel freaking awesome :D!!!!

*giant fireworks explode in the sky' YAY FOR ME~ 

those days when you plan out things to do for yourself or other agenda's you need to complete but on the way things screw up and fuck up in front of you? I had one of those days today hahaha

It's one of the shittiest feelings you get when they give you the negative answer.

I walked into K-mart all happy that i was going to get super duper cheap photos developed and I handed the girl my film and she says that they don't do it anymore due to K-mart and kodak ending their contract, my face was just like O_O......................... for a few seconds and I just nodded my head and walked off like a zombie haha

my day was pretty much

Chadstone--->holmesglen--->city[succeeds in finding film developers]<------------back on train to Glen Waverley and find out gametraders is closed..slept on the train for 45 minutes just to buy an av cord for the dreamcast and not getting it FUUUUUUU

plus the heat was being a BITCH 

sorry for the lack of blog entries..just..wasn't feeling the whole spend long amounts of time and posting it lol

P.S

got txt'd by joy today while I got on the train, great to see her lovely smile once again.......but she was with her friends so I just took photos and drifted back and forth into sleep till i had to get off the train and wave goodbye..

Wonder if I'll ever see her again....she's in a whole different world now..bleh T_T 

so much sun over exposure that it kills the top of the photo but leaves a nice dreamy feel of what was developed and shown haha

P.P.S
no matter how stupid I look wearing shorts, I am going to wear them tomorrow cause it's fucking hot XD and that the Red Hot Chili Peppers are fucking awesome

YAY! Halloween is this weekend :D 

anyway last weekend I had my little photoshoot with my lovely baby bear XD phuong has this GREAT smile

have fun going through my flickr..though doubt anyone does lol

http://www.flickr.com/photos/nyomrabbit/

here's a sneak peak lol

I had my photoshoot with my baby bear daughter phuong today~

It actually went well....I got A LOT of great shots with the black bird camera and the dslr that richard lent me~
Phuong has such a nice smile it makes me smile and laugh haha we spent the day drinking coffee on the fake grass at QV [I got my coffee from chan :D she made me a cappuccino~ haha] then we headed to photo...ugh i dunno and took some photostickers..god I felt so dirty but at the same time so happy cause I finally was out with my daughter XD NOT A REAL DAUGHTER, its an internet thing~

[I made fun of her date that she's going to take to her formal cause the boy looks like a punk-kid who's trouble] lol

went to fed square area, took more photos, made me her laugh even more and I took her home..well..took her to her train platform XD
phuong is by far the cutest girl I've seen and happily been friends with, she's kinda like...a teddy bear you always wanna hug and use as a nice, comfy shoulder rest haha

going to k-mart to process my photos using the most expensive developing price they can offer haha :D 

OH YEAH! so the photoshoot ended earlier than expected because phuong was feeling kinda tired so I took the train to Box Hill to arcade and buy a DJ Technika memory card so I can store my scores and such :3 and while I was playing Danh and Ron came [cause of the bbq at box hill] and we talked and hanged out for awhile then we saw a girl who was playing DJ Technika and she is SO FREAKING PRO and well...now we're friends LOL her name is Sali and she's really awesome, really talkitive and stuff :) 

YEAH MADE MY FIRST ARCADE FRIEND HAHAHA 

like I'm said on facebook

I'd like to thank the mindless idiots of Glen Waverley Secondary college for breaking my canon AE-1 camera, thanks so much /sarcasm

I had to carry my camera home soaked in fish-oil, WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS GENERATION!? 

There I am minding my own business trying to take a photo then suddenly SMASH, a giant ball of fish-oil hits my camera and knocks it down the train tracks -_- I had to sprint down to the train service area and ask if they could get my camera. 

are kids just going fucktarded these days!? WHAT IS WRONG WITH THEM? I fucking raged at those kids when this happened, this camera is worth so much and it just dies by the hand of these fucking stupid kids -_-

I don't know if I should talk to the police about this or just let this pass..



on a better note I scanned in some new photos :) 

anyway considering I don't have much going on in my life I keep wondering about things like..

• when will the zombie apocalypse happen and how I'll react to it? 
• what would happen if I was in the bank and I was caught in the middle of a bank robbery
• walking into my house late one night and seeing a horrible bloody massacre involving my family and a note saying the police will be arriving in 1 minute
• waking up in a tub filled with ice covered in open cuts on my body
• Being sent to an insane asylum
• In a foreign country and being sentenced to the death penalty
• If I became homeless
• Being strapped to a chair and having someone smash my cameras
• Vampires surrounding my house and trying to get in through the windows

anyway supposedly a group of masked men viciously assaulted a group of yr 12 Mount waverley boys while they were celebrating the end of yr 12 at Dampers Creek.....as heartbreaking as this is I found this quite amusing because nothing like this has never happened to me while I was at school haha

I hate it when people stereotype you just because of how you look or from what you wear or  how you act.

is it a human instinct just to automatically do that? or is it that people are naturally douchebags? 

Yeah I admit I know I'm not one of the 'cool' kids or wear expensive clothes or bleach my hair and do my hair all nice because I like who I am~ geeky and myself~

but enough of that crap

has anyone seen how nice the city looks at night!??? I was at galactic circus for awhile playing Tekken and when I went outside, everything just looked so nice with all those shiny lights on haha took a few photos with my holga camera, but the really annoying thing is I have to tape up my camera because the light actually leeks into the insides of the camera and when the photos develop, you get lots of light consuming the photo haha

I'm just going to say this, Screw being the nice guy, if I made you something, you somewhat appreciate it and then your friends take it in another turn and bag the crap out of me for who I am..I'm not gonna bother doing anything anymore

and EB games are asking for Christmas workers....I MUST APPLY!!!!!

to the end I'm hungry...and starving myself because I've gotten fat and must diet lol

Like millions of other people ahead of me

YES  I will be making videos of youtube to see what can happen, I'll probably won't get any views and just lots of haters saying 'woah what a loser' but I don't care, I'm doing this for people who WANT to watch it

The videos are just about the weird news that won't appear on television like the first video I made about the boy in Texas. I'll also be talking about my life and what happens in society these days haha

http://www.youtube.com/user/nyomrabbit there we go, now go ahead and watch them! another video will be uploaded when I wake up haha

now I gotta sleep...need to go to officeworks to buy a new notebook for my photography notes hahaha

How do you feel when you do something for someone, they like it but then their friends um..I guess take another view upon it?

other than that question..WHO NEEDS A BABYSITTER? LOL I miss those carefree days when I'd just do nothing and babysit the neighbors kids just for a few hours, we'd play games and I'd read them stories haha

My friend Richard dropped off my Holga 120 GCFN camera last night on his way back from work and I spent about 2-3 hours trying to load the film, MY FRAKING GOD SO FRUSTRATING HAHA and only 12 exposures per roll..I'm going to have to be careful about my photos now because 120mm film is fraking expensive..lucky I can buy 1 roll from each box hahahahaha

The most amusing thing about the Holga is that it has 3 different colour flashes at the top of the camera so I can create more colours for the photos I take haha

I'm going to the city tomorrow to unload more of my anime merchandise in my room, thing is..I'm getting profit from selling this HAHAHAHA but since I have to meet this guy at 4:30pm I'm gonna go to the city through boxhill and arcade for a few hours since the kiddies are at school mwuahahaha